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*PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO READ THIS AS I FEEL THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ALL THE SMALLER ARTISTS, SPREAD THE WORD TOO, IF YOU CAN*

Alright...where do I start with this?

I gotta a question to ask. What inspired you to draw? Was it someone who you looked up to who was your idol as an artist? Most of you would say yes. That you wanted to draw because it was fun and that it was something you wanted to work on as a hobby

But what happens when you look at the views of an artwork you posted and you noticed it got slim to none attention? Do you get discouraged and stop drawing or do you strive to continue because it's something you love doing no matter the amount of views, favorites or comments you get.

Remember when I asked what inspired you draw? Well obviously it wasn't to get "famous" or for the favorites or comments. Then why do we feel that's our motivator to keep going and that, if we got none of those we should just quit our passion? Because we want people to love our work as much as we do. Which is okay! When we're passionate about something, we wanna talk about it with others.

Here's where the problem occurs though, when we get our head too wrapped up in the views and favorites, we will won't find it as a hobby and more of as something that needs to be done whether we want to or not. Then comes the motivation downward spiral until you're so far down the rabbit hole of wanting the attention that your passion is gone.

Let me tell you this, don't go down that hole. You got the talent and you shouldn't let it go to waste. Create because you want to create. Not because you want the views and favorites.

Thank you - Zebra Print

It's no surprise to anyone that 2020 has been a dreadful year for everyone. It was a year that never seemed to give anyone a break from stress, anxiety, or sadness. I want take the time to talk about my feelings about 2020 as it just wasn't a good year for me personally either. So please, if you have the time to read, sit down and listen.

The Beginning Drama: Now I'm not gonna go into too much detail about this event that started 2020 especially since it involves close friends of mine so I will keep everyone anonymous out of respect. There was a lot drama tension within my friend group which causes me to question everything that was happening. Luckily, I didn't lose friends myself despite having fears of it happening. But...my friend group was pretty much different. And this was only the beginning of the year.

February Blues: February wasn't much better. More drama and fighting happened. On top of that, my dog unexpectingly died one night which left me heartbroken for most of my break. To this day, I still get choked up talking about it...

Pandemic Insanity: I know that the pandemic is still an ongoing but it had the most negative effect on me from May to most of my summer. I don't know what specifically happened but I know that my home life was extremely toxic and online school was very stressful. I felt like I had no escape from the stress and my anxiety levels were so bad.

Losing friends and a whole friend group: This the main reason why this year has been hard on me. This has to be a new record of losing friends in a whole year. One friend I lost due to them being very toxic towards me and my friends which led them to getting kicked from our friend group. There was a friend group that related to a discord server I used to be in. I met a lot of new friends and got closer with other. This discord server even led me to having another relationship that started back in March. But as the title says, this didn't last. Eventually everyone started to distance themselves and then never talked to me for the rest of the year. I finally broke when someone who I thought I trusted told me there were busy when I was terrified of them leaving me. Well...unfortunately that fear came true. They lied to me. They were off being with other people while I was left in the dirt...again. Also if you were wondering about my relationship, that ended too. He also distanced himself from me which led to me breaking up with him. I left his server and eventually leaving his life for good.

I just don't understand why so many people left me or hurt me. I don't know what I did to deserve this. I feel so hurt inside and I just fear that more people will just leave me.

It's been so hard keeping all this to myself. 2020 truly did a number on my mental health and at this point I need a break. But life can't seem to give me one.

But...I gotta move forward, so for those who read through this...thank you. <3

Since recently I've been more confident about my art style, I'm gonna slowly stop using bases and will only use them for references, along with reference sheets and the family portraits for the Lesbians story.

I also may use them once in awhile but only if the poses are too hard for me to draw.

I really want to improve more as an artist plus bases are just a pain to use sometimes. I have a love hate relationship with my mouse so that's mainly why.

Anyways, hope to continue posting art in the future and stick around for more ideas

Thanks for reading~ Zebra